After reading Neil Gaiman’s short stories for Tori Amos’ concept album Strange Little Girls,  I was instantly drawn to the one he wrote for New Age.

She seems so cool, so focused, so quiet, yet her eyes remain fixed upon the horizon.

You think you know all there is to know about her immediately upon meeting her, but everything you think you know is wrong. Passion flows through her like a river of blood.

She only looked away for a moment, and the mask slipped, and you fell. All your tomorrows start here.

It was one of those selfish, giddy sensations that one might feel when you’re absolutely sure that a song, a poem or a meme (for the sake of keeping up with the now)  is written about you or for you. So upon reading that short but wonderful nugget of text by my favorite writer, I vowed that I would use it for myself whenever introductions are needed. So I wrote it in the first pages of my journal notebooks and planners. I also used it as my first post in a failed blogging comeback about two years ago.

I actually planned to post New Age again as my first entry in this blog. I wanted to look mysterious and deep and you know, well-read. But while I think the story does speak for me about me, I’ve decided to introduce myself properly.

I’m Lea, a 25-year-old from the Philippines. I’m currently having an “existential crisis”, as do most twenty-somethings nowadays are. Or so it seems. Some call it “quarterlife crisis”, but “existential crisis” is more apt for me because I feel like I’ve been having this trouble even before I’ve reached my “quarterlife”. Plus “existential crisis” or “existential dilemma” sounds more bad-ass.

I love reading, writing, music, movies and just getting balls-deep in anything I find amusing. These are what I mostly plan to write about here: the books I read, the music and movies I like, etc. Since this is a personal blog, I’d occasionally write about my thoughts on things I care about. I’m also planning to travel a lot next year so hopefully, this blog will be filled with travel posts.

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This is me 🙂

The blog title and tagline of this blog were taken from The Stranglers’ song called Strange Little Girl. It was later covered by Tori Amos (to perfection, might I add) for the same concept album mentioned above. Anyway to put it simply, I chose the title and tagline because I am a strange little girl and I don’t know where I’m going.

I set up this blog primarily to keep me sane. To put it directly, I feel like this isn’t really my year. The constant battle of trying to find out who I really am and trying to figure out what I want to do for the rest of my life has led to one indecision after another. So I quit the first job that I’ve had since graduating college and am presently working in what I consider a “temp job”.

So while I’m giving myself time to think about where to go and what to do next, I’ve decided to turn to the things that I love doing the most. Obviously, writing is one of them. I used to write a lot when I was younger. I started out with writing scary stories on Looney Tunes notebooks in gradeschool. Then I eventually graduated to Word documents and notepads, a blog (more on that in another post) and a short, unmemorable stint in my highschool paper. I even took up Literature for two years then decided that I wanted to teach instead. Like I said, I’ve always been in a constant state of existential indecisiveness.

I know I’m not the best writer, but writing has always been a release for me. So I hope I’d be able to write on this blog as often as I can. I was also hoping that aside from this blog being a form of therapy for me, it can also serve as some kind of a “journey” thing. Even though things are not at all going the way I planned them to be, things can still look up, right? When they do, I hope I’ get to write all about it here. But for the moment, I’m just going to write things. So to anyone reading this, welcome to my mind.

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